I like new year's day. Everything, even if it is just in my mind, is ready to be renewed, to begin from the start. I'm allowed to have a clean slate and maybe just get that bit closer this time to what I imagine my life should be. However this year I'm going to start by liking what I have rather than whining about what is not right.
I like my husband (love him too but that's a given). He makes me laugh, genuinely laugh out loud with his antics. He is a serious man but with a deep sense of the ridiculous. It is his birthday today which is kind of cool, he starts his new year of life in the new year. He is my biggest supporter even when I get things wrong, he still sees something in everything I do. He is one of those terribly steady people who very rarely wobbles and even when things are shaky he quickly finds his centre again.
I have two fabulous kids who are growing into interesting young adults. They make me hold my breath, they make me cry for joy and fear, they bring me moments of unconditional love. No one ever tells you that the baby part is actually the easy bit, it is the rest of life watching over them that is the hard part.
I'm one of the lucky ones. I have family and friends who care about me and bring me moments all the time to create memories out of. I have food on the table and a roof over my head that is pretty clearly more than a house, it is really a home. I have a job that is evolving and I have a chance this year to find some new directions.
So I begin this new year with a sense of hope and a belief that my foundation is actually strong enough to allow me to build upwards and outwards in 2013. I hope the year brings wisdom, serenity, laughter, happiness and most of all growth.
